Life in the Spectrum – Breaking the Silence About Mental Health Struggles

***Originally posted on Life in the Spectrum.

I keep quiet about the pain because if I reveal the truth, people will judge me. I fear the stigma that will exist once someone sees the me – the real me. I don’t want other people to view me differently, to recognize how dark my shadows can run, to know how lost and alone I often feel. I say I’m fine when I’m not, and I put on the smile. But behind the mask of happiness that I wear on the surface, I have spent years struggling with mental health challenges.

The irony of this whole charade is that I now know that countless people around me and around all of us are just pretending that they are okay, too, even when they are clawing to just hold on. Every single time that I write about depression, multiple individuals post comments or send me messages telling me how they feel the same way but don’t talk about it.

We stay silent in an effort to maintain a facade that allows us to assimilate with society. We want to blend into a world full of people, but those same people are playing that “fake it till you make it” game, too. I’m not suggesting that you display every colorful detail of your life for all to see. More to the point – don’t do that. Big time no to that. Your whole story should not be the world’s business. But you should be able to be honest with people whom you trust. You need a genuine support network, and I guarantee you that they need you more than they are saying, too.

I don’t typically delve into my personal experiences with depression, anxiety, or OCD nor do I discuss my sadness regarding people who lose their lives to suicide or my own survival stories. The nightmare stories of my personal mental health challenges aren’t conversations I would ever have at work nor would I bring those topics up casually or at random with anyone else. I am selective about my audience for those kinds of discussions. Admittedly in this moment my selective audience consists of the entire internet, but the odds are high that you can relate to my words if you are still reading. In truth, the odds are high that almost everyone can relate.

Life can be a seriously rough ride at times, and we don’t always know how to react or even how to feel. We don’t receive a “How to be a Human the Right Way” when we are born, but we spend our lives trying to figure out what that even means. There’s no set answer, life is not black and white, and every person you know has struggled with mental health in one form or another at some point in his or her life.

We need to accept that it is okay to not be okay all the time. We can’t keep pretending like nothing is wrong when we need help. We have to speak up, and we need to be honest with each other. The day you reveal your struggles to others is the day that you will discover that you are anything but alone in this.

So even though I do fear the stigma, the judgement, and the misunderstandings, I know that I can’t live my life hiding the person I really am – good or bad, dark or light. I fall down, but I get back up, too. I sometimes feel like I’m drowning, but I know that I will find my way back to the surface again. My lowest points have been the most revealing moments in my life, and while I would not wish those experiences on anyone else, I wouldn’t eradicate them from my personal history either.

Own all parts of your journey. Learn from the falls whenever you find your way back to your feet once more. Search for the meaning in the madness and the calm in the storm. Discover that brave voice within you, and speak up when you can. And if you can’t find a safe place to speak your truth, I’m always happy to listen. Others have been lighthouses to me in my darkest times. I would love to be yours in return.

Much love to you. Jo

***Before you even ask, I promise you that I really am all good. Like everyone else, I go through waves of feeling like I’m crashing and burning, but I’m not in that place now. Nevertheless I have been there more times than I can count. When we feel that way, we need to find the courage to seek help. Figure out who you want in your inner circle and let those people into your world – all of it. You will be surprised once you learn how many others are struggling in silence as well. You need them, but they need you, too. Be brave and speak up. Always.

10 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. shoreacres
    Jul 01, 2018 @ 20:52:12

    I just noticed your mention of your Instagram name — Texasbirdnerd — over at Lisa’s blog, and thought, “Oh, lookie! Another Texan!” I thought I’d stop by, and now have followed your blog.
    Speaking of birds, have you heard about the flamingo that was spotted recently down at Lavaca Bay? It escaped from a Kansas zoo in 2005 with a partner in crime. The partner headed to Michigan, but this one headed south, and pops up now and then. It was a Texas Parks & Wildlife crew that spotted it at Lavaca Bay. What a world!


    • Jo Price
      Jul 01, 2018 @ 22:18:00

      No way! Well hello my awesome new Tex pal! I love you for popping this way. You are such a sweetheart! And you will never believe this but I actually saw a flamingo flying very high up over Katy (west of Houston) a couple of years ago. I was so stunned but then I thought that it had to be a spoonbill. I parked my car to watch it for a minute but it was a freaking flamingo!! At the time I didn’t have any camera equipment and I didn’t know many area bird nerds. So basically I saw a unicorn all by myself. How sucky!!! Lol. What is your IG name so I can find you there?!?


      • shoreacres
        Jul 01, 2018 @ 22:20:47

        I’m not on any social media, including Instagram or Facebook. I’m not precisely a technophobe; I’ve just chosen to use my time differently. My two blogs are all I can handle.

      • Jo Price
        Jul 01, 2018 @ 23:32:40

        You are terribly wise for making that choice. I deleted the games off my phone for the same reason. Between work, family life, and writing, who has the time? I almost never make it to Facebook. Too much drama. And I am pretty new to Instagram. It makes me think about posting pics and I usually use those for the blogs. I couldn’t do it otherwise. 🙂

        Again thank you for dropping me a line. I’m so very happy that we met. 🤗

  2. Anonymous
    Jul 03, 2018 @ 07:02:29

    Jo Price, thanks so much for the post.Much thanks again. Really Cool.


  3. Lucila
    Jul 15, 2018 @ 10:59:47

    thx I needed to know this


  4. BloomsandBeautifuls
    Aug 14, 2018 @ 08:36:29

    Amen! You are so strong to share! I finally was brave to share my story lately! I struggle a lot from post partum depression and post traumatic stress disorder. I’ve had to seek out some really big help! I was so afraid to share! But once I did I was met with love and support 💜 Our daughter almost died soon after birth in a freak circumstance. Only God could have brought her through almost unscathed. I just reblogged her story. At
It is a daily struggle for me to push fear out of the way and Trust in Gods plan.


    • Jo Price
      Aug 14, 2018 @ 22:59:17

      It’s incredible how we develop a true PTSD after moments like that, but if we can survive them, there’s also a tremendous gift to be found in those times. Our ability to continue to work through the pain and fear allows us to help others when they are in it. To ease their worry. To soften their hurts. Your sharing your story may help someone who is standing at the edge and needs to know that it’s not just them. I love that you are such a brave rockstar, and I adore that you find the courage to speak about it. You are AWESOME! ❤️❤️❤️


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