I’m only a few days into my little challenge, yet it has already opened my eyes well beyond any expectation I might have had. I haven’t been able to see how unavailable I have been for my family, let alone change any shortcomings I could sense.
A couple of dedicated hours a day is such a small thing, but I have been missing that precious time. Incessant work and incessant everything else. No slowing, no breathing, and definitely no stopping.
Yesterday we watched a kid movie, made dinner together, and turned the bottom couple inches of my 10 year old daughter’s hair burgundy. She was ecstatic (even though the truth is that you would have to know it’s there to see it). Little moments. Big smiles. Major wins in the long run.
I’ve been spending my time the wrong way regardless of all the good intentions behind that. I have every valid reason to justify why those two hours have been focused on work or checking items of the critical tasks list. Now those same reasons are dropping in value and priority at an exponential rate. I have been missing what matters, and although I sensed it to some degree, I really wasn’t getting it. Hopefully I’m starting to do that now.
Momentum of Joy 