The heavy rain finally made its appearance today and with it came the perfect excuse to stay home and take it easy. To be clear, I would have done this had it been sunny instead, but the rain provided a plausible reason for my plan of inaction.
I’m sitting here listening to the rain and having one of those “So now what?” kind of moments. These seem to be appearing with greater frequency lately. It’s as though something is calling to me, but I can’t quite make out what it is saying.
Unexpected opportunities appear at different times in our lives. Sometimes you jump on the train, and sometimes you get thrown in kicking and screaming the whole way. I feel like I’m standing by the tracks, but I can’t locate the train and I don’t have a clue where to look.
I reflect on my life and the different trains I have sought at varying times. School, job, marriage, children. They all came and each one had its own special gifts as well as its own special baggage compartment. Lucky for them, I brought matching luggage. But I knew that I wanted those. There was never a question and never a doubt.
I have always been able to believe my way into making life happen. If you aren’t into belief shaping your reality (which I very much am), think of it as being fiercely tenacious. If you want something enough and you are willing to trust, honor your intuition, and dive in with everything you’ve got, I don’t doubt that you can have it – whatever that may be. Truly.
The issue I face is that I don’t know what I am seeking now. It’s as though I’m being “mostly authentic” to the person I really am, but that’s like saying it’s “mostly a real diamond.” There’s no middle ground to be found.
I feel like the bridge hidden beneath the water. The key elements are below the surface. Although the timing is beyond my control, the clouds will fade and the waters will recede. My inability to discern its presence at this moment does not change the reality that it is there. I am certain of it.
Wisdom can be found in the most random of places.
But that’s not a rule. Sometimes you just have to be glad that you got a cookie.
***MoJo***
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